8:03pm
So I just woke up. Not for the day (give me SOME credit, yeesh) but from a 3 hour nap. Fell asleep immediately after work. Today I chose to work from home so all I had to do was get up from my desk and step twice to my left to my bed. In fact I was dozing while on a late conference call so it was official. The nap was happening. My body is probably trying to recuperate from the long weekend. Anywho, I don’t want to make this too long. I’ve been super unmotivated lately. By my standards anyway.
Vlogs? Yeah no.
Forgiveness Friday Post? Uh nope.
Summer LookBook? Nah..
PLUS, there is so much more I’d like to be doing. And I’m so hard on myself. Working full-time and maintaining 2 YouTube channels and a blog ain’t easy. But I love it. Wait, I’m so off topic! So I woke up from my nap because this dream jolted me. Let me set the stage. Why are dreams are so difficult to stage? Classroom….adult class….not sure what I was teaching but I was teaching the class and called on some lady with a bad attitude to read out loud. She was dragging her feet and I totally had a, “don’t worry, I’ll wait” type of attitude right back at her. I was encouraging and just myself when I walked over to see what the delay was….I mean she wasn’t reading engineering material….it was like a short story of something. Maybe from Jouelzy’s new book Sent It On. Chick was adamant about taking her time…I was irritated but maintained my composure.
She looks me in my face and accuses me of being fake and not as happy as I portray. I’m thrown off….like really? Then I go in about how I don’t have to justify my happiness to anyone. Being alive, waking up in the morning was all I needed to be happy. Because the reality is God didn’t have to wake me up. In fact there were SO many beings that did NOT wake up on this glorious day. So there! LOL! I’ve actually explained my happy before…on a number of occasions. I’m bubbly, always giggling or laughing or smiling. ALWAYS….and that’s okay. But some question how authentic that is. Can you REALLY be THAT happy all the time? Um..yeah, it’s called being grateful. You can be happy when you understand that being happy is a choice. Life has its moments. I’ve had some bad, sad and just plain embarrassing moments. But life is TOO short to get swallowed up by the temporary fleeting moments that try to steal your happy. God is just too good to not be grateful. Especially when God opens your eyes each morning. And I don’t want to go out (die) with my lip poked out mad at something or someone that ain’t even that serious. I’d rather go out with a BIG smile on my face…Can that be done if I have an open casket funeral? Weird thought. Anywho…
Don’t worry, be happy.
Random right….and I’m not sure if there’s some deep seeded dream interpretation that I should be looking into, but I woke up inspired to write and get my life together. Now that the new design of the blog is done (almost) I can focus on the content I set out to distribute when I began blogging. FINALLY! So stay tuned for all things KG Lifestyle. I like my lifestyle with all of its changes, it’s kinda fly. :) So if you want to be fly…you should read my blog…often….LOL!
That might have been the worst sign off ever…but leave a comment below and let me know what makes you happy! This is so similar to the Grateful Giveaway I did awhile ago, and I love that.
Peace & Blessings,
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